I don’t want to tell you this because I don’t want it to be true, but we said goodbye to my beloved Cookie last week. Her smile and courage brightened my days for thirteen years and I miss her so much. Thirteen years! I am the luckiest, and what I would give for more.
Cookie is my sidekick, my frontman, my best friend, my real-life teddy bear, my soulmate. As long as Cookie is around, I’m not alone. I can almost feel him hugging me next to me now. Cookie got me through the darkest days and brightened the best. He accompanied me through countless long days and long nights as we built this website from the ground up. He also tried almost every recipe, whether I wanted him to or not.
In her earlier years, Cookie had an uncanny habit of shooting out the front door like a rocket, which inspired immense gratitude for every day we spent together. He then received a terminal diagnosis of cancer, lymphoma, and defied the odds by living another two-and-a-half years. I always dreamed of taking care of him in his old age, and that’s what I had to do. Over the past year, he’s lost his hearing and his health has declined, which seems more difficult and complicated than I expected. He died of old age, and while I wonder if I did the right thing every step of the way, I find some peace and comfort in knowing that we spent all of his best days together. A dog cannot be more expensive.
Cookie came into my life at the perfect moment, when I was fresh out of college and learning to live on my own. She came with me through marriage and motherhood. He left me exactly where I wanted to be in my upper thirties, with my loving husband and our baby girl. My heart is full and broken at the same time.
Cookie is extraordinary and so is our marriage. I spent much of our time together wishing for what I have now, yet I’m feeling so sentimental about our special time together as Cookie and Kate. May this be your gentle reminder to appreciate what you have when you have it.
Thanks for cooking with us and finding fun in his antics. I’ll be back soon to share more photos and some of my favorite Cookie memories with you. He is truly the greatest.